A lot of things have happened since my last post. I can’t believe I have been absent from the world of blogging for nine months. But I’m still there doing what any mother ought to. (though cutting myself some slack)
This whole season has been such a time of learning and growing in Christ with all the circumstances He brought my way.
Last July I was pregnant (yes I didn’t announce it in blog land) and full of excitement. After my previous miscarriage I was so trilled with my sonography reports. Having experienced two miscarriages in the past, I really didn’t want my husband away while pregnant, but this time he had to go for a family wedding and so had my mom! Little did I know that those two weeks would be most memorable with my dad. I cooked some of his favorite meals and went out to dinners, did nature walks together. We read the bible together… those were sweetest moments I will cherish for life!
In November last year, he was diagnosed with 4th stage lung cancer. This was really hard and came like a shock. I was four months pregnant… and this news was really hard to swallow. It was not easy, and this hymn ‘Day by day’ was my song, and 1Corinthians 15 my verse of choice – they tended and kept me!
Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,
I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.
He Whose heart is kind beyond all measure
Gives unto each day what He deems best—
Lovingly, its part of pain and pleasure,
Mingling toil with peace and rest.
But through it all, my dad has had such a good testimony, he never once questioned God. Always prayed and trusted Him, and was looking forward to the Kingdom. This whole experience strengthened our family. My mum also showed great fortitude and trust – a real strength to my sister and me!
I had just one request from God that I would be there by my father’s side the last moments of his life. Since he was in and out of the hospital, and if in the ICU we were not allowed in. God answered that prayer! I had the previous night with him and was there by his side the morning he passed away, March 29th, 2013.
My dad was the meekest and the most sweetest man I’ve know. I say this not just because he is my father, but because he was such a man… he could give the shirt off his back to another, peacemaking was second nature to him, he always regarded others first. That never changed even till the end! He was a committed Christian and loved the Lord with all his being. I will ALWAYS miss him! Oh, how I can’t wait for the resurrection!
I also want to announce that I had a baby girl, Neriah, on April 2nd, few days after my dad passed away. I really wished for my dad to have seen her. But she couldn’t have been better timed. She has brought great joy to my mum and me in this time of mourning. This has really helped my mum immensely, God does things in ways we can’t comprehend till much later. A commingling of joy and sorrow, and of assurance that I will see my father in the coming kingdom! Life will always have a blend of these emotions and trusting Him is the only way to move on.
I am happy to get back in blogland after a whole tumultuous season! Looking forward to parenting with another baby in tow!